An Open Letter to My Critics

I'm not sure if I'll even post this.  I'm even more sure you'll never read this - because all you've ever cared about is yourself & your world.  But it's something I have to get off my mind so I can move past your negativity & use it as motivation to make my journey even bigger.

When you contacted me last week, I was shocked.  I couldn't even find words to respond to you at first.  Whatever I did say after that - was super polite & unconfrontational.  Because that's who I am & not who you are.  Since then, a million things have ran through my head on what I really should have said instead.

I'm not sorry & I shouldn't have to ask your permission to share the words in my heart.  This journey I am on is for me, not you.  Sure I want to honor those I care about as well - & the fact is...  That's all I have done my whole life. I'm sorry that you don't agree with my choices - but they are mine.  Not yours.

I didn't any say anything hurtful, private, untruthful, or disrespectful.  If you think anything I've said has been, that's on you - not me.  You obviously don't know my heart or had enough respect for me to ask me.  

I guess my only regret is caring when I thought you cared too.  But maybe that's the reason you are no longer a part of my life like you once were.  You've cared only about yourself & never about anyone else.  You've heaped yourself in self pitty & claimed you've never wanted pitty from anyone else. Your actions are just the opposite - especially when you chose to write a "pitty" statement following.

So my only apology is really that I'm sorry that I ever cared about you or your life.  I stopped caring now that I've completely removed you from my life.

I'll use your words as motivation.... Motivation to help & love others who need my help, love, & support - motivation to keep being the kind hearted person I am.  Motivation on days I'm tired & don't want to work out.  Motivation to give those a voice to those who can't speak for themselves.  Because that has was always my intention in the first place.

In closing - I guess I do want to say thank you.  Thank you for inspiring me to become an even better person.  I'll pray for you that you do the same one day.